THERE!

well, for all of you out there, my blog is now fully up to date. brett's no longer on it for those of you who were concerned

yes, i'm still a wreck, a mess. i'm pretty sure it's quite obvious to everyone
but slowly, i'm getting over it. (i think?)
how effin long will it take?

i guess on to a little bit happier of a note..i'm going to winnipeg this weekend with candis.
seeing Christina with The Pussycat Dolls
should be fun. it will be nice to just get far away from here

it's almost 11, and i should get sleep. but i can't. i don't sleep. blah
and we're out of nytol, my sleeping pill. i'm totally not gonna fall asleep tonight now

well i should get going, i don't know what else to say.
i love you all
xoxo

I BEGGED YOU NOT TO GO

so my question today for all of you out there is;

can you fall out of love with someone?
i mean, really, do you think you can?


i personally think you cant. i think once you love someone, they stay with you forever. they stay in your mind, body, and soul.


another thing i wonder..have you ever felt that sting in your chest, on your left side, close to your heart? you feel out of breath, and an empty feeling in the pit of your stomach?
is that heart break?
does anyone know the antidote for heart break?

or is there no antidote out there?

do we deep down inside stay heartbroken forever?

heartbreak:
noun
intense sorrow caused by loss of a loved one

HMM

well i'm at school and bored. i have a bad headache. we went to the career symposium today, i almost died from the ride there and back. bah

i hope i see brett soon. ah.

i will leave a blog soon hopefully, i have to go to work now..

how was everybodys weekend?

WEEKEND?

so party at lueders tomorrow. sounds like lots are going. hopefully it's a gooder


i don't quite know how to portray the weekend at this moment. it will be..well interesting. hopefully i don't go too phsyco on a certain person

wish me luck
i'm gonna need it

DAY OLD HATE

i don't want to go to school
i want to curl up in my bed, turn on dallas green and dashboard...and stay there all day

just when you think you can't cry anymore, the tears come again
i can't even handle school or anybody today for that matter

god i'm an effin mess

:(

i need to cry..

i hate me
i hate everything

Why- Jason Aldean

It's 3 AM and I finally say
I'm sorry for acting that way
I didn't really mean to make you cry
Oh baby, sometimes I wonder why

CHORUS
Does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you

I know I'd never let you walk away
So why do I push you 'til you break
And why are you always on the verge of good-bye
Before I'll show you how I really feel inside

CHORUS
Why does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you

Why do I always use the words that cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I do that to you