I HATE DUMB TRASHY WHORES
that's all i have to say
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
PSYCHO
fresh and clean clean
so question. anyone know why i get pissed off at the littlest things? like honestly, it's ridiculous! gosh. i'm like psycho overreactive teagan BAH.
like example. brett texts me, at like 9:30ish (it's 10:30 now) and says hes studying hardcore, it's intense. i said i was too, then i asked when he'd be done studying..but he stopped texting me, so i'm like..ook then i'll call him, cuz i wanna go to bed early tonight..cuz usually the boy waits till like midnight to call me, and i NEED sleep drastically ppl
so then i call at like 10:15 and he's at mikals.. he WAS studying, but went over there after, which is cool that's fine. then i said, well thanks for texting me back and he's like "ok". (what does "ok" mean?) and i was like "uhhhh ok talk to you later then?" and he's like "what?" and i'm like, "talk to you later." and he's like "yeah bye." then just hangs up. like WTF? unlike him
and for some unknown reason that pisses me off? should it? it shouldnt right? i mean, i did just see him yesterday, and i think seeing him tomorrow. i guess it's just how he was talking? and not texting back? maybe that's what pissed me off? i really just don't know! UGH
i'm messed
i'm trying to be "carefree i don't care what he does" teagan
if i keep being bitchy know-it-all teagan i'm just gonna drive him away...
HeLp?
so question. anyone know why i get pissed off at the littlest things? like honestly, it's ridiculous! gosh. i'm like psycho overreactive teagan BAH.
like example. brett texts me, at like 9:30ish (it's 10:30 now) and says hes studying hardcore, it's intense. i said i was too, then i asked when he'd be done studying..but he stopped texting me, so i'm like..ook then i'll call him, cuz i wanna go to bed early tonight..cuz usually the boy waits till like midnight to call me, and i NEED sleep drastically ppl
so then i call at like 10:15 and he's at mikals.. he WAS studying, but went over there after, which is cool that's fine. then i said, well thanks for texting me back and he's like "ok". (what does "ok" mean?) and i was like "uhhhh ok talk to you later then?" and he's like "what?" and i'm like, "talk to you later." and he's like "yeah bye." then just hangs up. like WTF? unlike him
and for some unknown reason that pisses me off? should it? it shouldnt right? i mean, i did just see him yesterday, and i think seeing him tomorrow. i guess it's just how he was talking? and not texting back? maybe that's what pissed me off? i really just don't know! UGH
i'm messed
i'm trying to be "carefree i don't care what he does" teagan
if i keep being bitchy know-it-all teagan i'm just gonna drive him away...
HeLp?
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
FABTAB. BAH
Well I'm at fabulous school right now. Science class to be exact. So much drama going down right now though, I mean not in my life really, thank god. But wow. Anyway, I've been busy with school, vball, brett, work.. baahh. I get to see my hunny bunches tonight, I miss him. Hmm today is Prep Day at school today, which was kind of fun because I could dress extra girly and wear my extra cute Split skirt. Tomorrow I have to go to Brandon for this Peer Helper thing, so I don't get to be here for Straight Up G Day. Bummer. Today's been a really slack day so far, which is wonderful. This whole week is very busy, many tests. But this weekend I'll get to go to Brandon with Brett, yay. Anyway I best be bouncin off, before Mr.B catches me. AH that would be scary. Latterrr dudes
Monday, April 23, 2007
PEEP SHOW
OH MY GOD!
the most BEYOND embarressing thing happened to me tonight. well see my living room window is like just across from my bedroom door. so the living room window blind was up, and it's usually closed. anyway i had my bedroom door open and i was just in sweat pants and a tank top..soo i was gonna change out of my top. so i take off my top..(still in a bra ppl lol the bra stays on through this whole story) and was turning around to grab a shirt.. ( i wasn't gonna change anything else, i just wanted a tshirt) then the next thing i know theres this light flashing across the street. my neighbor, a guy at that, is standing at his door looking out the window trying to get my attention with his outside light.. haha so i just shut my door super quickly and called erika lol. SOOO EMBARRESSING! haha i will never ever look at my neighbor the same ever again. i mean yeah he was just being helpful, and it's not like i was gonna take anything more off, but HE thought i was. oooh my. ooh my. how awful. oh dear.
anyway, i'm slightly pissed off for other reasons which i don't want to post. but GRRRR. and be prepared for a bitchy teagan tomorrow ppl.
the most BEYOND embarressing thing happened to me tonight. well see my living room window is like just across from my bedroom door. so the living room window blind was up, and it's usually closed. anyway i had my bedroom door open and i was just in sweat pants and a tank top..soo i was gonna change out of my top. so i take off my top..(still in a bra ppl lol the bra stays on through this whole story) and was turning around to grab a shirt.. ( i wasn't gonna change anything else, i just wanted a tshirt) then the next thing i know theres this light flashing across the street. my neighbor, a guy at that, is standing at his door looking out the window trying to get my attention with his outside light.. haha so i just shut my door super quickly and called erika lol. SOOO EMBARRESSING! haha i will never ever look at my neighbor the same ever again. i mean yeah he was just being helpful, and it's not like i was gonna take anything more off, but HE thought i was. oooh my. ooh my. how awful. oh dear.
anyway, i'm slightly pissed off for other reasons which i don't want to post. but GRRRR. and be prepared for a bitchy teagan tomorrow ppl.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I FEEL PRETTY OH SO PRETTY
BAH i'm in idiotic geography class right now..and we're doing this stupid research project on farming and crap. no offense to any farmers, but farming isn't exactly something i am interested in, much less enjoy. i don't care about agriculture, like seriously people!
anyway, enough of my ranting about that, i'm pretty sure everyone in my class is already annoyed with this research project too.. i'll move along to happier things!
today's wednesday..and let me tell ya, wednesdays are my favorite day of the week. no work, no volleyball..it's beautiful really. today's wonderful. wearing my new shirt (which ppl seem to notice and talk about how expensive it is, how do ppl know!??), my hair and makeup's gorgeous.. it's very great. after school i'm gonna go tanning..then hang out with my little bro and my dad, and then i'm gonna go to bretts for awhile tonight. i'm very syked to see him, i miss him alot already, and i just saw him monday. i know, not that long ago. but yeah, still super excited! this weekend's kinda lame, i just work and have a vball tourny sunday. nothing important, and brett's gone to winnipeg friday/saturday. so that's gonna kinda suck without him. hmm. so yes, any hoppin things going on this weekend that anyone knows of?!?!? i seriously, desperatly need something to do to keep my occupied.
anyway, enough of my ranting about that, i'm pretty sure everyone in my class is already annoyed with this research project too.. i'll move along to happier things!
today's wednesday..and let me tell ya, wednesdays are my favorite day of the week. no work, no volleyball..it's beautiful really. today's wonderful. wearing my new shirt (which ppl seem to notice and talk about how expensive it is, how do ppl know!??), my hair and makeup's gorgeous.. it's very great. after school i'm gonna go tanning..then hang out with my little bro and my dad, and then i'm gonna go to bretts for awhile tonight. i'm very syked to see him, i miss him alot already, and i just saw him monday. i know, not that long ago. but yeah, still super excited! this weekend's kinda lame, i just work and have a vball tourny sunday. nothing important, and brett's gone to winnipeg friday/saturday. so that's gonna kinda suck without him. hmm. so yes, any hoppin things going on this weekend that anyone knows of?!?!? i seriously, desperatly need something to do to keep my occupied.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
OLD NEWS
so it's saturday! night of the fashion show. i have my hair and makeup done, so 80's style not even gonna lie. my makeup's outrageous! it's a little hard to get used to but oh well shake it off.
last night the dance was alot of fun! more ppl there then i expected to be!
one thing that is bothering me though is some people who just STILL have to bitch about me and brett. old news. especially if they're supposed to be my friend then they don't have to be all rude about it. god people just get over it. it's no one else's business to talk about it anyway, and it sure as hell doesn't have to be the gossip in the hair shop either. stupid stories go around, probably some that are blown more out of porpotion then they need to be. i don't need to hear people saying "i'm not impressed with you teagan for being with him. i don't like it. what are you thinking. blah blah blah". i've heard it already and i really don't give a shit what anyone else wants, it's what I want. i'd like to think about myself for once a bit too. like eff people ENOUGH. it's my decision and what i feel. fucking bitch all you want, it's not changing my mind. i am a smart girl for the most part people, i can take care of myself. i make my own decisions and if i feel it's right, then it is ok! gosh. i know you're concerned but please just let go of it already. if me and him want to be together then we will be. people make mistakes, we both have. yes we fight every now and then. but that's healthy and normal in a relationship. it's not like we fight all the time, usually we're both just really giddy and dumb together. like fighting every now doesn't make us a "bad match".
ok now that i'm done freaking out i feel by far much better.
i best be going i still have to paint my nails for the show.
last night the dance was alot of fun! more ppl there then i expected to be!
one thing that is bothering me though is some people who just STILL have to bitch about me and brett. old news. especially if they're supposed to be my friend then they don't have to be all rude about it. god people just get over it. it's no one else's business to talk about it anyway, and it sure as hell doesn't have to be the gossip in the hair shop either. stupid stories go around, probably some that are blown more out of porpotion then they need to be. i don't need to hear people saying "i'm not impressed with you teagan for being with him. i don't like it. what are you thinking. blah blah blah". i've heard it already and i really don't give a shit what anyone else wants, it's what I want. i'd like to think about myself for once a bit too. like eff people ENOUGH. it's my decision and what i feel. fucking bitch all you want, it's not changing my mind. i am a smart girl for the most part people, i can take care of myself. i make my own decisions and if i feel it's right, then it is ok! gosh. i know you're concerned but please just let go of it already. if me and him want to be together then we will be. people make mistakes, we both have. yes we fight every now and then. but that's healthy and normal in a relationship. it's not like we fight all the time, usually we're both just really giddy and dumb together. like fighting every now doesn't make us a "bad match".
ok now that i'm done freaking out i feel by far much better.
i best be going i still have to paint my nails for the show.
Friday, April 13, 2007
DANCING
well it's friday!!! thank you god! haha i'm so happy. i still have to work today after school, then go to the rehearsal for the fashion show...but oh well, at least school's almost done!! report cards go home today, AHH. i'll post later informing my marks, if they're good enough lol (how's everyone elses report cards?)
soo rossburn dance tonight!!! i'm pretty excited. i feel like dancing dancing, da da da da. yes today i'm in a good mood, except i keeping falling asleep in class, i definately need a nap of some sort.
i'm excited to see brett tonight, i miss him lots. haven't seen him since sunday. things are going great in that department by the way, for those who are wondering.
anyway, it's pretty much break time, so i better get rollin' on outta here. science class next, blah.
have a lovely weekend! (what are you all up to??) and ooo a lovely friday the 13th. (scary) haha.
love ya'll.
exxoooh.
soo rossburn dance tonight!!! i'm pretty excited. i feel like dancing dancing, da da da da. yes today i'm in a good mood, except i keeping falling asleep in class, i definately need a nap of some sort.
i'm excited to see brett tonight, i miss him lots. haven't seen him since sunday. things are going great in that department by the way, for those who are wondering.
anyway, it's pretty much break time, so i better get rollin' on outta here. science class next, blah.
have a lovely weekend! (what are you all up to??) and ooo a lovely friday the 13th. (scary) haha.
love ya'll.
exxoooh.
Monday, April 9, 2007
P.S.
hmm well some ppl seem to like that we're back together...
while others...
not so much
i don't know. it's hard to explain. blaaahhh i'm so confused. about that, and stuff
and i'm REALLLY bored. ughh
shoot me now.
OH P.S.
Much Music Dance in Rossburn this Friday, 8:00-12:00. Doors close at 9. Grades 9-12.. Be there fools.
Whatever happened to dances when they used to be awesome and "the place to be"? lol
People should go to this one and dance their socks off. Wahoo.
while others...
not so much
i don't know. it's hard to explain. blaaahhh i'm so confused. about that, and stuff
and i'm REALLLY bored. ughh
shoot me now.
OH P.S.
Much Music Dance in Rossburn this Friday, 8:00-12:00. Doors close at 9. Grades 9-12.. Be there fools.
Whatever happened to dances when they used to be awesome and "the place to be"? lol
People should go to this one and dance their socks off. Wahoo.
Saturday, April 7, 2007
TOGETHER AGAIN
well hello everyone. i'm at courtnay's right now so i'll make this short.
well long story but to sum it up brett and i are back together.
yes it's been a month, long wait but i'm beyond happy.
just thought i'd fill ya'll in on that.
today's a super good day :)
have a good rest of the weekend, love you all
xox.
well long story but to sum it up brett and i are back together.
yes it's been a month, long wait but i'm beyond happy.
just thought i'd fill ya'll in on that.
today's a super good day :)
have a good rest of the weekend, love you all
xox.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
OK?
TOC was good. The Used were my favorite there. I don't have much to say on here about it.. But I did some shopping which was nice.. I don't know how I feel right now. Kind of happy, but sad. Blah. Crying seems to become easier, it's kind of like I'm just used to it. I'm not gonna lie, I do cry like at least three times a day now. I'm not going to go into detail, because I really don't want to.. But anyway I still have so much homework to do, yet I feel terrible and don't feel like doing it. Hopefully I sleep tonight.. I'm so incredibly glad no school on friday.. I unfortuanately have to work and drive tomorrow.. Which is going to suck so much.
But enough of my depressingness, I got to get going .. I'll talk to you all later...
Goodnight..
But enough of my depressingness, I got to get going .. I'll talk to you all later...
Goodnight..
Sunday, April 1, 2007
TOC BETCHES
leaving for winnipeg tomorrow after work ppl
taste of chaos tuesday. i'll leave a post after the concert to fill ya'll in on how rad it is
but like all i have to say is oh em gee.
i'm scared and a little worried
taste of chaos tuesday. i'll leave a post after the concert to fill ya'll in on how rad it is
but like all i have to say is oh em gee.
i'm scared and a little worried
Friday, March 30, 2007
LEAVING ON A JET PLANE
so yea..little bit of a freak out last night..sorry about that.
but i have GREAT news today!! hehe i am SOOO effin excited!!
my mom, myles and i were talking about this summer.. and we've decided to go to Niagara Falls for a week. so we'll drive down through the states, like through Chicago and then up by Toronto. i'm just so excited cuz we've never been on a trip before lol. and Niagara Falls will be sure beautiful. the drive will be 25 hours, but it's gonna be hilarious cuz there's never a dull moment with my step dad myles.
anyway then we got talking more, and figured that next summer we're now going to fly to New York!! i'm really excited to spend that time with my mom. she's ultimately the best ever. and we'll get to go shopping and do girly stuff lol. my mom is so like a teenager sometimes, but i love her to bits.
lol i just had to share that awesome news with everyone. whoot. i'm so pumped!
love you all <3.>
but i have GREAT news today!! hehe i am SOOO effin excited!!
my mom, myles and i were talking about this summer.. and we've decided to go to Niagara Falls for a week. so we'll drive down through the states, like through Chicago and then up by Toronto. i'm just so excited cuz we've never been on a trip before lol. and Niagara Falls will be sure beautiful. the drive will be 25 hours, but it's gonna be hilarious cuz there's never a dull moment with my step dad myles.
anyway then we got talking more, and figured that next summer we're now going to fly to New York!! i'm really excited to spend that time with my mom. she's ultimately the best ever. and we'll get to go shopping and do girly stuff lol. my mom is so like a teenager sometimes, but i love her to bits.
lol i just had to share that awesome news with everyone. whoot. i'm so pumped!
love you all <3.>
Thursday, March 29, 2007
OK SO A LITTLE BIT OF A BREAK DOWN..
ughhh jesus fucking christ
i am so fucking sick of life
i'm sick of myself
if i could, i would be someone else
i dont want to cry anymore.. i want to be happy and i want to smile. i want to just get over him already like he's gotten over me .. fuck sakes... uhhh
ive never felt so miserable and terrible in my whole life like i have in this past month.. i cry like five effing times every day.. i cant sleep. i need freakin sleeping pills just to have a decent sleep at night (don't worry i cant get like dependent on them, already got that checked out lol i'm not some druggy here) but really how long will this go on? cuz i seriously cannot take it anymore
i know he's happy and that's all i want.. i just want him to be happy.and if that's without me..then fine i will stay miserable without him.. but i just cant feel like this all the time..and i dont know what to do to change it.. i try going out, i try keeping busy.. i do.. but no matter how hard i try it doesn't work.. and it's not like i can just tell my heart to stop loving him. i can't just fucking tell it to!! cuz if i could then i would.. but it doesn't work. i'm sorry people if im not bubbly and happy and all that but how can i be?.. i wish it could just all go back to normal..
i've come to realize that i'll never ever get him back.. and that's what kills me the most
so i've stopped trying. i'm giving up completely on everything.
tomorrow i will most likely regret even posting this but i dont care..
i'm just sharing with you all that life is so fucking great!
i am so fucking sick of life
i'm sick of myself
if i could, i would be someone else
i dont want to cry anymore.. i want to be happy and i want to smile. i want to just get over him already like he's gotten over me .. fuck sakes... uhhh
ive never felt so miserable and terrible in my whole life like i have in this past month.. i cry like five effing times every day.. i cant sleep. i need freakin sleeping pills just to have a decent sleep at night (don't worry i cant get like dependent on them, already got that checked out lol i'm not some druggy here) but really how long will this go on? cuz i seriously cannot take it anymore
i know he's happy and that's all i want.. i just want him to be happy.and if that's without me..then fine i will stay miserable without him.. but i just cant feel like this all the time..and i dont know what to do to change it.. i try going out, i try keeping busy.. i do.. but no matter how hard i try it doesn't work.. and it's not like i can just tell my heart to stop loving him. i can't just fucking tell it to!! cuz if i could then i would.. but it doesn't work. i'm sorry people if im not bubbly and happy and all that but how can i be?.. i wish it could just all go back to normal..
i've come to realize that i'll never ever get him back.. and that's what kills me the most
so i've stopped trying. i'm giving up completely on everything.
tomorrow i will most likely regret even posting this but i dont care..
i'm just sharing with you all that life is so fucking great!
FYI
well it's a snowy thursday today, and i don't work. i do tomorrow though unfortunately.
but as for today, i am going to lounge around and watch some movies
i'm really excited for next week, because it's taste of chaos!! i'm most syked to see the used.
and as for all you out there who've been asking me about new guys i'm with or telling me i should go for someone else i just want to tell you all something:
i am not interested in anyone right now. i just got out of a one year relationship, which i didn't even end, he did. so obviously i'm not over him yet. i will eventually, but right now i still want to be with him..and i need time to get over this. i can't just move onto someone new. it wouldn't be fair to that person because the whole time i was with them, i'd be wishing it was someone else (and we all know who that is). i appreciate you all for caring and trying to help me through this, but "moving onto someone new" isn't going to help me at all, it's just going to make things harder then they already are. so no, there's no one new. and no, i'm not going to go out with anyone right now either.
with that being said, i hope you all have a good spring break. i think this saturday i'm going to brandon with tyson, which should be fun. i'll talk to ya'll later. love yeah
exxoooh
but as for today, i am going to lounge around and watch some movies
i'm really excited for next week, because it's taste of chaos!! i'm most syked to see the used.
and as for all you out there who've been asking me about new guys i'm with or telling me i should go for someone else i just want to tell you all something:
i am not interested in anyone right now. i just got out of a one year relationship, which i didn't even end, he did. so obviously i'm not over him yet. i will eventually, but right now i still want to be with him..and i need time to get over this. i can't just move onto someone new. it wouldn't be fair to that person because the whole time i was with them, i'd be wishing it was someone else (and we all know who that is). i appreciate you all for caring and trying to help me through this, but "moving onto someone new" isn't going to help me at all, it's just going to make things harder then they already are. so no, there's no one new. and no, i'm not going to go out with anyone right now either.
with that being said, i hope you all have a good spring break. i think this saturday i'm going to brandon with tyson, which should be fun. i'll talk to ya'll later. love yeah
exxoooh
Monday, March 26, 2007
STRESS BALL ANYONE?
hmm well. todays slightly better than yesterday. sorry for the freak out. i just saw something that upsetted me.
well i worked all day today, and i work all day tomorrow. blah
tomorrow i have to go driving too, which should be okay i guess
wednesday i have a vball game. that should be ok. then i'm hanging out with an old friend that night..should be fun.
thursday i have a staff meeting at eight in the bloody morning! like wtf!! haha. then i have vball practice and have to drive that night
i might be going to winnipeg this weekend, i need to get shoes for my escort dress
i bought it in brandon, its pink and from le chateau. its gorgeous
anyway, thats all i have to say for now.
lots of stress going on lately.
but one of those stress balls should relieve it a bit
well i worked all day today, and i work all day tomorrow. blah
tomorrow i have to go driving too, which should be okay i guess
wednesday i have a vball game. that should be ok. then i'm hanging out with an old friend that night..should be fun.
thursday i have a staff meeting at eight in the bloody morning! like wtf!! haha. then i have vball practice and have to drive that night
i might be going to winnipeg this weekend, i need to get shoes for my escort dress
i bought it in brandon, its pink and from le chateau. its gorgeous
anyway, thats all i have to say for now.
lots of stress going on lately.
but one of those stress balls should relieve it a bit
Sunday, March 25, 2007
STUPID!
today's a bad day...
ok a REALLY bad day.
fuck.
everyday is an effin really bad day.
what the hell's the matter with me?
what is seriously the matter with me, i'm so stupid. ugh!!
i need to have a serious venting session, a hard cry..and a disney movie to help this.
i hate spring break
ok a REALLY bad day.
fuck.
everyday is an effin really bad day.
what the hell's the matter with me?
what is seriously the matter with me, i'm so stupid. ugh!!
i need to have a serious venting session, a hard cry..and a disney movie to help this.
i hate spring break
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
WHAT ON EARTH!
hey ya'll. it's T to the EAGAN.
so this whole blog thing is getting quite dramatic isn't it?! like holy ppl settle down! we will soon become young adults, we should really start acting like it! i don't know why people get so much joy in hurting others intentionally, especially when they've done nothing wrong to you. what is this world coming to?
i watched the movie Blood Diamond yesterday, and i give it like 100 stars out of 10. it was amazing. i recommend it to anyone and everyone. it's about what goes on in africa and stuff, like holy. it's scary. if we ever think we have problems, we should really think again. how people living in the same continent can turn agaisnt eachother like that? it doesnt just go on there of course...but it was really just an intense thing to watch, that really makes you wonder, you know? it was very sad, and gruesome. but still, watch it guys.
the last few days haven't been as great as i would hope they'd be. i'm quite sad and depressed. yes i know, pathetic. but shake it off right? mhm. just makes me wonder when i'll get over it. i hope soon, i can't stand feeling like this. but i'm trying my best to look good, and act good. soon hopefully feeling good comes along.
i'm at school, and should probably get going for lunch. we had effin cross country skiing today, it was rather disgusting, and i must say, i'm not very good at that skiing. no way.
and as for the ppl who are wondering about me and asking everyone else, you can ask me. i don't bite..usually.
love you all.xoxo.
have a nice day.
.teagan.
so this whole blog thing is getting quite dramatic isn't it?! like holy ppl settle down! we will soon become young adults, we should really start acting like it! i don't know why people get so much joy in hurting others intentionally, especially when they've done nothing wrong to you. what is this world coming to?
i watched the movie Blood Diamond yesterday, and i give it like 100 stars out of 10. it was amazing. i recommend it to anyone and everyone. it's about what goes on in africa and stuff, like holy. it's scary. if we ever think we have problems, we should really think again. how people living in the same continent can turn agaisnt eachother like that? it doesnt just go on there of course...but it was really just an intense thing to watch, that really makes you wonder, you know? it was very sad, and gruesome. but still, watch it guys.
the last few days haven't been as great as i would hope they'd be. i'm quite sad and depressed. yes i know, pathetic. but shake it off right? mhm. just makes me wonder when i'll get over it. i hope soon, i can't stand feeling like this. but i'm trying my best to look good, and act good. soon hopefully feeling good comes along.
i'm at school, and should probably get going for lunch. we had effin cross country skiing today, it was rather disgusting, and i must say, i'm not very good at that skiing. no way.
and as for the ppl who are wondering about me and asking everyone else, you can ask me. i don't bite..usually.
love you all.xoxo.
have a nice day.
.teagan.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
I'M COMING OUT!! I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW!
So I went to the concert last night. It was amazing, Christina put on the best show! I had a good time this weekend, and being away really cleared my mind and put things in perspective for me!
I posted two songs below, they are really empowering if you're ever in a situation with a breakup. I suggest cranking these two songs in your room and belt out the lyrics as loud as you can. (or go to their concert, it is even better and makes you feel completely independant and great!) But I swear to you, you will feel better when you're done listening to these songs!
Those two songs are now my theme songs, heck yes
Today, I am smiling! I am happy! I love my self
The concert was a great thing for me
Oh by the way, look about three posts down, at my READ-IMPORTANT blog i posted. READ IT! Thanks muchly everyone! I love you all!! <3.
I posted two songs below, they are really empowering if you're ever in a situation with a breakup. I suggest cranking these two songs in your room and belt out the lyrics as loud as you can. (or go to their concert, it is even better and makes you feel completely independant and great!) But I swear to you, you will feel better when you're done listening to these songs!
Those two songs are now my theme songs, heck yes
Today, I am smiling! I am happy! I love my self
The concert was a great thing for me
Oh by the way, look about three posts down, at my READ-IMPORTANT blog i posted. READ IT! Thanks muchly everyone! I love you all!! <3.
I AM A FIGHTER
FIGHTER-CHRISTINA AGUILERA
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended to not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended to not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
I DON'T NEED A MAN
I DON'T NEED A MAN-THE PUSSYCAT DOLLS
I see you looking at me
Like I got something for you
And the way that you stare
Don't you dare
'Cause I'm not about to
Just give it on up to you
'Cause there are some things I won't do
And I'm not afraid to tell you
I don't ever want to leave you confused
The more you try
The less I buy it
And I don't have to think it through
You know if I'm into you
I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
Oh!
You know I got my own life
And I bought everything that's in it
So if you want to be with me
It ain't all about the bling you bringing
I want a love that's for real
And without that no deal
And baby I don't need a hand
If it only wants to grab one thing
I don't need a
I don't need a man,
I don't
I don't need a man
I'll get me through
'Cause I know I'm fine
I feel brand new
I don't need a
I don't need a man,
I don't
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I'm doing fine
Without you!
I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man (I'm without you)
(I'm over you)
I see you looking at me
Like I got something for you
And the way that you stare
Don't you dare
'Cause I'm not about to
Just give it on up to you
'Cause there are some things I won't do
And I'm not afraid to tell you
I don't ever want to leave you confused
The more you try
The less I buy it
And I don't have to think it through
You know if I'm into you
I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
Oh!
You know I got my own life
And I bought everything that's in it
So if you want to be with me
It ain't all about the bling you bringing
I want a love that's for real
And without that no deal
And baby I don't need a hand
If it only wants to grab one thing
I don't need a
I don't need a man,
I don't
I don't need a man
I'll get me through
'Cause I know I'm fine
I feel brand new
I don't need a
I don't need a man,
I don't
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I'm doing fine
Without you!
I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man (I'm without you)
(I'm over you)
READ THIS-IMPORTANT
FROM NOW ON, ANYONE WHO POSTS A COMMENT WILL PUT THEIR NAME. IF YOU DON'T, IT WILL BE DELETED. IF YOU'RE NOT PUTTING YOUR NAME BECAUSE YOU'RE "scared" I'M GOING TO GET MAD, THEN YOU SHOULDN'T BE POSTING THAT COMMENT AT ALL.
good day!
ps. i will make exceptions for the anonymous comments here and there, that are just simple and straight to the point. the ones that aren't rude about things. i may not delete those if i feel like it's no big deal.
good day!
ps. i will make exceptions for the anonymous comments here and there, that are just simple and straight to the point. the ones that aren't rude about things. i may not delete those if i feel like it's no big deal.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
THERE!
well, for all of you out there, my blog is now fully up to date. brett's no longer on it for those of you who were concerned
yes, i'm still a wreck, a mess. i'm pretty sure it's quite obvious to everyone
but slowly, i'm getting over it. (i think?)
how effin long will it take?
i guess on to a little bit happier of a note..i'm going to winnipeg this weekend with candis.
seeing Christina with The Pussycat Dolls
should be fun. it will be nice to just get far away from here
it's almost 11, and i should get sleep. but i can't. i don't sleep. blah
and we're out of nytol, my sleeping pill. i'm totally not gonna fall asleep tonight now
well i should get going, i don't know what else to say.
i love you all
xoxo
yes, i'm still a wreck, a mess. i'm pretty sure it's quite obvious to everyone
but slowly, i'm getting over it. (i think?)
how effin long will it take?
i guess on to a little bit happier of a note..i'm going to winnipeg this weekend with candis.
seeing Christina with The Pussycat Dolls
should be fun. it will be nice to just get far away from here
it's almost 11, and i should get sleep. but i can't. i don't sleep. blah
and we're out of nytol, my sleeping pill. i'm totally not gonna fall asleep tonight now
well i should get going, i don't know what else to say.
i love you all
xoxo
Sunday, March 11, 2007
I BEGGED YOU NOT TO GO
so my question today for all of you out there is;
can you fall out of love with someone?
i mean, really, do you think you can?
i personally think you cant. i think once you love someone, they stay with you forever. they stay in your mind, body, and soul.
another thing i wonder..have you ever felt that sting in your chest, on your left side, close to your heart? you feel out of breath, and an empty feeling in the pit of your stomach?
is that heart break?
does anyone know the antidote for heart break?
can you fall out of love with someone?
i mean, really, do you think you can?
i personally think you cant. i think once you love someone, they stay with you forever. they stay in your mind, body, and soul.
another thing i wonder..have you ever felt that sting in your chest, on your left side, close to your heart? you feel out of breath, and an empty feeling in the pit of your stomach?
is that heart break?
does anyone know the antidote for heart break?
or is there no antidote out there?
do we deep down inside stay heartbroken forever?
heartbreak:
noun
intense sorrow caused by loss of a loved one
do we deep down inside stay heartbroken forever?
heartbreak:
noun
intense sorrow caused by loss of a loved one
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
HMM
well i'm at school and bored. i have a bad headache. we went to the career symposium today, i almost died from the ride there and back. bah
i hope i see brett soon. ah.
i will leave a blog soon hopefully, i have to go to work now..
how was everybodys weekend?
i hope i see brett soon. ah.
i will leave a blog soon hopefully, i have to go to work now..
how was everybodys weekend?
Friday, March 2, 2007
WEEKEND?
so party at lueders tomorrow. sounds like lots are going. hopefully it's a gooder
i don't quite know how to portray the weekend at this moment. it will be..well interesting. hopefully i don't go too phsyco on a certain person
wish me luck
i'm gonna need it
i don't quite know how to portray the weekend at this moment. it will be..well interesting. hopefully i don't go too phsyco on a certain person
wish me luck
i'm gonna need it
DAY OLD HATE
i don't want to go to school
i want to curl up in my bed, turn on dallas green and dashboard...and stay there all day
just when you think you can't cry anymore, the tears come again
i can't even handle school or anybody today for that matter
god i'm an effin mess
i want to curl up in my bed, turn on dallas green and dashboard...and stay there all day
just when you think you can't cry anymore, the tears come again
i can't even handle school or anybody today for that matter
god i'm an effin mess
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Why- Jason Aldean
It's 3 AM and I finally say
I'm sorry for acting that way
I didn't really mean to make you cry
Oh baby, sometimes I wonder why
CHORUS
Does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
I know I'd never let you walk away
So why do I push you 'til you break
And why are you always on the verge of good-bye
Before I'll show you how I really feel inside
CHORUS
Why does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I always use the words that cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I do that to you
I'm sorry for acting that way
I didn't really mean to make you cry
Oh baby, sometimes I wonder why
CHORUS
Does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
I know I'd never let you walk away
So why do I push you 'til you break
And why are you always on the verge of good-bye
Before I'll show you how I really feel inside
CHORUS
Why does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say "I love you"
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I always use the words that cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I do that to you
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
RIDDICCC
well two blogs in one day is pretty outrageous. but something else is bothering me, and i feel venting it will ease my angerness.
ok so yes, i don't go out as much anymore. i don't feel a need to party every weekend. i don't personally want to go get smashed like every weekend either. i have a boyfriend, whom i love to death. in my own opinion, i would prefer to do something with him. i still go out, yes. it's not like i've "disowned" my friends or some ridiculous thing like that. i don't think i'm better than anyone else, and i certainly don't think that i'm too good to go to parties. i'm busy through out the whole week, and lots of times on weekends too. sometimes i really just don't feel like going out. is that such a crime? so when a party comes up that i can go to and want to go to, i shouldn't get bitched at because i haven't been to one in awhile. yes, i used to go out way more than i do now...that's because i didn't take school seriously, i didn't have a serious boyfriend, i took a year off volleyball so i wasn't playing that, and i didn't have a job. this year is much different than last. i shouldn't be nagged at by certain people because i am busy and want some time for myself. if i want to go out this weekend i effing will...it's only a few who are all bitchy about this.. i'm pretty sure people do still like me even if i haven't made partying my main priority. and you know maybe these certain people are just joking around..i don't care. it's immature to be saying shit like that. so get the eff off my back hoes.
ok so yes, i don't go out as much anymore. i don't feel a need to party every weekend. i don't personally want to go get smashed like every weekend either. i have a boyfriend, whom i love to death. in my own opinion, i would prefer to do something with him. i still go out, yes. it's not like i've "disowned" my friends or some ridiculous thing like that. i don't think i'm better than anyone else, and i certainly don't think that i'm too good to go to parties. i'm busy through out the whole week, and lots of times on weekends too. sometimes i really just don't feel like going out. is that such a crime? so when a party comes up that i can go to and want to go to, i shouldn't get bitched at because i haven't been to one in awhile. yes, i used to go out way more than i do now...that's because i didn't take school seriously, i didn't have a serious boyfriend, i took a year off volleyball so i wasn't playing that, and i didn't have a job. this year is much different than last. i shouldn't be nagged at by certain people because i am busy and want some time for myself. if i want to go out this weekend i effing will...it's only a few who are all bitchy about this.. i'm pretty sure people do still like me even if i haven't made partying my main priority. and you know maybe these certain people are just joking around..i don't care. it's immature to be saying shit like that. so get the eff off my back hoes.
EFF
ARRGHH.
for eff sakes. stupid effing ppl. everybody is pissing me off. leave me the eff alone.
i''m in the worst of mood and a certain person is seriously driving me further and further away without fully realizing it.
does this person even care? i think not
i want this day to be over. i want to go home and vent. but no i am stuck here at school feeling like a caged animal ready to unleash! and as i mentioned before i am rather terrifying when that happens!!!!!!! i don't even know 100% what i'm really mad at. it's a bunch of things bottling up.
i hate stupid whores. stupid fakes. stupid posers and stupid assholes. and pretty much everyone i know is at least one of these things
fuck
helppp
for eff sakes. stupid effing ppl. everybody is pissing me off. leave me the eff alone.
i''m in the worst of mood and a certain person is seriously driving me further and further away without fully realizing it.
does this person even care? i think not
i want this day to be over. i want to go home and vent. but no i am stuck here at school feeling like a caged animal ready to unleash! and as i mentioned before i am rather terrifying when that happens!!!!!!! i don't even know 100% what i'm really mad at. it's a bunch of things bottling up.
i hate stupid whores. stupid fakes. stupid posers and stupid assholes. and pretty much everyone i know is at least one of these things
fuck
helppp
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
SONGS OF THE WEEK!
I've decided I'm going to post 2 songs of the week, every week!... Yay. So download them, listen to them, comment them on here.
So the first song I've chosen is Fever-Peggy Lee Lewis. Now this is quite the old song, some people might not have even heard it. But tonight I was watching American Idle and a guy sang it, and I was like "dang I haven't heard this song in ages, but it sure is bangin'"
The second song I've chosen is 100 Proof Woman-Fight Paris. This songs a little more southern rock. I love Fight Paris! The lyrics to this song are hot. I heart it.
So the first song I've chosen is Fever-Peggy Lee Lewis. Now this is quite the old song, some people might not have even heard it. But tonight I was watching American Idle and a guy sang it, and I was like "dang I haven't heard this song in ages, but it sure is bangin'"
The second song I've chosen is 100 Proof Woman-Fight Paris. This songs a little more southern rock. I love Fight Paris! The lyrics to this song are hot. I heart it.
Monday, February 26, 2007
WAHOO
So yes, I decided why can't Teagan have a blog spot? I post blogs on my myspace so effin much but most of the derrddy tramps never read them. blah. Sooo i figure more might read here? I like venting, it makes me feel better. I've decided to try not and bitch about ppl on here..and if i do it will be in secret code so only people such as sherlock holmes could crack it.
So to start off the days blog;;
Well it's monday. What more can I say. MONDAYS SUCK! argh. I am very sore from volleyball, it was a work out yesterday. I am captain for the club team i'm on, which really excites me. I think my papa is quite proud.
Moving onto a more personal basis;;
I find lately i have been quite bitchy and moody..and possibly jealous?? WTF. It's pretty rank I'd say. Why am I jealous? Ooohh boy I dunno really. It's really getting to me. Like I said, won't mention names. But I say I now have full out reason to be jealous because of certain things that a certain person has done that has now led me to being an obscene crazy jealous girl. This Teagan is rather terrifying. Make this beast go away.
So to start off the days blog;;
Well it's monday. What more can I say. MONDAYS SUCK! argh. I am very sore from volleyball, it was a work out yesterday. I am captain for the club team i'm on, which really excites me. I think my papa is quite proud.
Moving onto a more personal basis;;
I find lately i have been quite bitchy and moody..and possibly jealous?? WTF. It's pretty rank I'd say. Why am I jealous? Ooohh boy I dunno really. It's really getting to me. Like I said, won't mention names. But I say I now have full out reason to be jealous because of certain things that a certain person has done that has now led me to being an obscene crazy jealous girl. This Teagan is rather terrifying. Make this beast go away.
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